I am sustained by the Love of God

This post was written by DoctorJay on December 21, 2009
Posted Under: A Course In Miracles - workbook,love,unconditional love,Zen

Yesterday I had a great difficulty with the thought of the day: “God speaks to me all through the day.” It was as though I was attempting to usurp God’s authority by deciding how the voice of God must be.

From yesterday’s workbook: The part that is listening to the Voice for God is calm, always at rest and wholly certain. I could not get in touch with that part. At the end of night I realized that everything is the voice of God including my fears, doubts and negativity.

This did not destroy the doubts and fears but made them much more palatable…

As soon as I read today’s thought,  it made great sense to me – I’m sustained by the love of God. It is all encompassing and exists within my fears and doubts.

As it happens like many others all over the world but especially those of us in the USA where the government is of the rich, by the rich and for the rich, where the fat cats are getting better off every day and when they mess up the government bails them out so they can give billions and billions of bonuses to themselves – while we the middle classes lose our jobs, houses, and everything else, I’m not sure how you face every day without fears and doubts.

This (my country the USA) is the only advanced industrial nation without universal health care. This is the only advanced industrial nation where thousands of people die every year because our government doesn’t give a damn about us – because of lack of health insurance.

The other day the ENT (ear, nose, and throat) specialist wanted to order a cat scan. We pay ten thousand dollars a year for health insurance but it has a fifty two hundred dollar deductible per person so we are delaying this needed test for months…

We used to be upper middle class while I had a job as a top software engineer. But my job was outsourced to India/China/Russia or wherever they can get cheep labor. Now over the years we are somewhere in the middle classes but I don’t know where. If things don’t change soon we could lose everything we own, Sure we will have each others’ love and of course the love of God…

But when I look at myself and millions of others like myself who are too old (above fifty in the engineering field) even though we have had many years of university education including postgraduate degrees and therefore we have been disposed of (partially because our health insurance costs too much), I have fear. I do feel despair. I feel dejected, rejected and worthless…

So today’s thought is wonderful. The point is that my life just now because of our economic situation is scary to me, and the love of God sustains me in these times.

No I cannot just say these are illusions – and yes they are – but in my daily life – under the consensus reality – I live in these illusions.

The love of God gives me peace in spite of what is going on outside me. The love of God gives me strength where I feel no good to anyone. There are days I feel so worthless I feel like life’s hardly worth it and the love of God makes me continue living…

I had to write the above not as a political statement – but just to talk about where I and millions of other desperate Americans are and why some days the workbook exercise ends up being very difficult to do.

So from today’s ACIM workbook:

Here is the answer to every problem that will confront you, today and tomorrow and throughout time. In this world, you believe you are sustained by everything but God. Your faith is placed in the most trivial and insane symbols; pills, money, “protective” clothing, influence, prestige, being liked, knowing the “right” people, and an endless list of forms of nothingness that you endow with magical powers.

All these things are your replacements for the Love of God…

Only the Love of God will protect you in all circumstances. [] It will transport you into a state of mind that nothing can threaten, nothing can disturb, and where nothing can intrude upon the eternal calm of the Son of God…

For ten minutes, twice today, morning and evening, let the idea for today sink deep into your consciousness. Repeat it, think about it, let related thoughts come to help you recognize its truth, and allow peace to flow over you like a blanket of protection and surety. Let no idle and foolish thoughts enter to disturb the holy mind of the Son of God. Such is the Kingdom of Heaven . Such is the resting place where your Father has placed you forever.

I’m about to do the first ten minute exercise:

  • It lasted about fifteen minutes of hope and despair, light and darkness, mental storms of anguish and peace in the knowledge that God’s love surrounds me (and you). I was coming up with practical ways of getting a job.
    Yes, I know the course says, “Your faith is placed in the most trivial and insane symbols; pills, money, “protective” clothing, influence, prestige, being liked, knowing the “right” people, and an endless list of forms of nothingness that you endow with magical powers.” That’s where I’m at this moment inmy  life. Jesus said, “You cannot live by bread alone.” He did not say, “You can live with no bread at all.”
  • I just went for a walk and everything looked so beautiful – that’s the love of God which sustains me in spite of the fears and worries. A Course in Miracles has diminished the fears and upsets – especially in terms of my relationships with others. It has meant that on days that I would not have done much work (because I would be too dejected) I’m working – learning new skills – so I can get a job again or be an entrepreneur. But I do feel fears and that’s OK. I refuse to engage in “New Age Guilt” where you feel bad because you are feeling bad or you “caused” everything that happens to you and therefore must feel guilty if your life is not going the way you expected.
  • I tried to add this quote from Voltaire yesterday or day before but somehow it was not added – it is even more apt for today:
    Each player must accept the cards life deals him or her.
    But once they are in hand,
    he or she alone must decide
    how to play the cards
    in order to win the game.
  • My own comment is that we can even decide which game we wish to play and set the rules for winning.
    That’s where a Zen attitude of acceptance is of great help.

The second ten minute exercise:

  • Not much happened. I fwlt very calm and happy.
    So I felt the unci=onditional love of God’
    To a great extent this was the peace of God’s voice we were on yesterday.

Namaste – peace.

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