My mind is part of God’s – I am very holy

This post was written by DoctorJay on December 6, 2009
Posted Under: A Course In Miracles - workbook,scams

Day thirty five – I’m noticing a distinct improvement in my attitude toward life – things, events bother me less – at this moment I supoose that’s the miracle.

The thought for today is:

My mind is part of God’s. I am very holy.

The workbook says:

For each of the three five-minute practice periods today, begin by repeating today’s idea to yourself, and then close your eyes and search your mind for the various kinds of descriptive terms in which you see yourself. Include all the ego-based attributes which you ascribe to yourself, positive or negative, desirable or undesirable, grandiose or debased. All of them are equally unreal, because you do not look upon yourself through the eyes of holiness…

Try to recognize that the direction of your fantasies about yourself does not matter. Illusions have no direction in reality. They are merely not true.

I just completed the first five minute exercise. Once I settled down, many negative thoughts and memories came up. With each I repeated the thought for the day. Soon I also noticed myself observing what was going on in my mind in order to write this down.

I was thinking this self observation comes from the fact that my academic training is as a pure scientist and I remembered that whenever I have had a mystical experience a part of me (the scientist) has observed it so it can be written down or described to others.

At this stage I opened my eyes and noticed that the five minutes were up. I wrote the first sentence of the above and did a second closed eye exercise. This time my mind went to the times when I have been brilliant when I had flashes of insight.

I remembered a time when I left a client’s house after a very successful hypnosis session. She was a lady of seventy six who had had a stroke six years earlier and was referred to me for pain management. The left part of her body was supposed to be paralyzed. On this occasion she managed to raise her lefty arm about an inch open her hands slight;ly.

When I left her house I was so happy. I thought, “Damn, I’m good.” Immediately before I could even complete the thought another thought replaced it: “No, God is good.” I understood that whenever I can get out of the way and allow myself to be a neutral channel for God’s work good things (and at times great things) will happen.

I remembered times when in my profession of software engineer I was brilliant was when the software was just writing itself and I was a dispassionate observer. I was just the typist. That has happened to me in my writing at times. The characters suddenly become alive and I type what I see. Even now I get a shiver in my back when I remember one such event when I wrote all night – but I was only the physical writer – the story wrote itself.

Such memories faded away and I kept repeating the thought for the day. And then the thought for the day changed to:

My mind is part of God’s. I am very, very blessed.

I realized that the word holy has some negative connotations for me because of all the hypocrites of different religions and sects who claim to be holy. Maybe it’s egotism, but I do not wish to be thought of even by myself among them.

The word blessed makes sense to me and since it happened spontaneously that’s the thought for today for me.

It’s now 9:00 a.m. and things are going quite slowly. Moreover, I have an indigestion and heart burn. I applied the thought of the day and as I thought how blessed I am the heart burn diminished.

Later as I was just shaving my mind went to various times “I have been scammed” and I immediately remembered how much I had learned thanks to those experiences. How they were lessons needed and the people I had imagined had harmed me had in fact helped me and I understood why these other minds each of which are part of God’s came into my life and I felt very,very blessed.

Another hour has passed and I still have not achieved my first goal of the day. I expect it to have been done by eight and there’s no real end in site. The good thing is that since my mind is part of God’s I know I’m extremely blessed so everything is alright and great.

Eleven thirty and I have been working since five. I achieved my first goal for the day. I’m going to take a long hot bath and then rest by meditating.

By the way I just wrote a post on my teaching story blog called carvansarai of dreams that I recommend you read.

4:44 p.m. – I had to drive about fifty miles and I kept repeating that my mind was in God’s mind and that I am very, very blessed so when the traffic slowed I just felt blessed and when someone pulled out in front of me for no reason I did not mind it too much. It’s not as though I did not mind it at all, I started getting (ok let’s take responsibility for our emotions – I started making myself) annoyed. But that passed immediately as I repeated that my mind is in God’s mind.

Note that yet again the affirmation changed automatically. This was because I was driving and did not have my card with me.

The night has ended we went out to a marvelous medieval music Christmas concert it was great fun and was made even better from the perspective of today’s thought.

My mind is part of God’s as is yours and yours and yours…

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