From meaninglessness to meanings through God

This post was written by DoctorJay on December 23, 2009
Posted Under: A Course In Miracles - workbook,Zen

Day fifty three we review days eleven to fifteen and move from meaninglessness to God and meaning – even if the world I see is meaningless God’s world is full of meaning:

(11) My meaningless thoughts are showing me a meaningless world.

(12) I am upset because I see a meaningless world.

(13) A meaningless world engenders fear.

(14) God did not create a meaningless world.
How can a meaningless world exist if God did not create it? He is the Source of all meaning, and everything that is real is in His Mind. It is in my mind too, because He created it with me.

(15) My thoughts are images that I have made.
Whatever I see reflects my thoughts. It is my thoughts that tell me where I am and what I am. The fact that I see a world in which there is suffering and loss and death shows me that I am seeing only the representation of my insane thoughts, and am not allowing my real thoughts to cast their beneficent light on what I see. Yet God’s way is sure. The images I have made cannot prevail against Him because it is not my will that they do so. My will is His, and I will place no other gods before Him.

Before I start doing today’s review exercise I wish to make a comment about the ACIM comment on day fifteen. I do not understand what the book means by denying the reality of suffering, loss and death. These are facts of life. As the Buddha said life is suffering. Then he showed the way to get over the suffering. I’m assuming that is what is mean here too. They are illusions in as much as they can be seen in a different way.

Anyway, I decided that this time I’ll go through the workbook from the beginning to the end and I’ll do it. So here goes the first long exercise of the day where I spend at least two minutes with each of the above thoughts:

  • My meaningless thoughts – I meditated and rapidly reached a place of no thoughts. After I returned to normal (beta wave EEG pattern) waking consciousness I came to the conclusion that there are at least two types of thoughts:
    1. Logical thoughts – like two plus two makes four.
    2. Opinions – like this book is good.

    As I’m writing this I remember that this very similar to Plato’s myth of the divided line in the Republic. In that he divides it into four types of perceptions and thoughts and he values the mathematical thoughts the most.
    I don’t think that’s where I want to go. I just think that opinions may be changed and I can change that type of thoughts or attitude to positive way of looking at the world. My own opinion is that the deaths, wars, hunger, suffering are part of God’s plans and hence OK. But that does not mean we sit on our rear doing nothing about them. It means we have a Zen attitude of acceptance of whatever is and that allows us to make a real change in the world.

  • I’m not as upset  anymore. But it is true. My attitude toward events are what gives the world meanings or lack thereof and gives me suffering. Or should I say I make myself suffer through my thinking.  Now, I have never been in huge “objective” trouble. However, I do know that when I use self hypnosis to rid myself of pain, it is not that I lose awareness, but the meaning of the awareness of “pain” changes to things happening.
  • I have written about my fears. Actually I’m not sure how much fear I have left. I just want (desire) a job. I’ll soon rewrite my resume and put it here.
    Anyone need a very creative embedded software engineer who sees only challenges – no problems?
  • At last we move from the negatives to the positives. By saying that God did not make a meaningless world we admit that true meaning is possible.

Later on as I went for my final Christmas shopping and then to the gym I noticed that I was much more comfortable with the later more positive affirmations. I kept saying things like:

  • God is love through which I forgive.
  • God is the love through which I bless – I sent love and blessing silently to all that I met and passed in the stores and in the gym. This to me is more important on whether things have meanings or not. OK I don’t understand anything. Who cares. I don’t. I know, I don’t know. I know it’s all illusory. And yet, I have my fears, doubts, worries and that’s good. With the love of God, with God’s strength all is good. It is like the myth of Genesis where the Elohim (literally Gods not God  – moreover Elohim is a paradoxical word: it is the masculine plural construction of a feminine singular word – thus showing that God is beyond conception male/female one/many and so on) keeps saying that things are good.
    Of course Genesis is a myth – it has psychological significance not scientific reality. It talks about the goodness of creation (matter) and for that matter goes against the philosophy of many spiritual system (including perhaps A Course in Miracles) like some forms of Gnosticism and Neo-Platonism which try to say matter is bad…
  • God is mind with which I think.
  • God gives me strength.
  • God is the power with which I’m forgiven.

In the gym I was reading a Rosicrucian book and it made a point that any esoteric system is like a scientific quest. You experiment and see the results. That’s the way I’m approaching A Course in Miracles. I’m doing the workbook as well as I can. Some days the exercises are easy and some not so easy. No matter what I’ll do the exercises for the whole three hundred and sixty five days. I do know that I have way fewer disturbances and feel better about myself and the world – so experientially something good is happening even though some of the theory at times jars and goes against my beliefs.

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