My happiness and my function are one

This post was written by DoctorJay on January 5, 2010
Posted Under: A Course In Miracles - workbook,compassion,forgiveness,unconditional love,Zen

The title resonates with me. Surely happiness is all that matters. Unfortunately we fight against our happiness by struggling for power, money, toys and other material things. We fight against our happiness by demanding that we must be right. We lose happiness through resentments, jealousies, and general lack of love.

We boost our happiness through unconditional love, compassion for all, happiness for the happiness of others.

Nobody complains on death bed that he/she did not spend more time in the office, or say that he who has most toys wins. People on their death bed regret not having spent more time with loved ones. They regret not loving enough, not forgiving enough, not being kinder…

That’s what true happiness is: love.

That’s what God is: love.

From ACIM workbook:

Begin the ten-to-fifteen-minute practice period by reviewing these thoughts:

God gives me only happiness.
He has given my function to me.
Therefore my function must be happiness.

Unless God gave your function to you, it must be the gift of the ego. Does the ego really have gifts to give, being itself an illusion and offering only the illusion of gifts?

Think about this during the longer practice period today. Think also about the many forms the illusion of your function has taken in your mind, and the many ways in which you tried to find salvation under the ego’s guidance. Did you find it? Were you happy? Did they bring you peace? We need great honesty today. Remember the outcomes fairly, and consider also whether it was ever reasonable to expect happiness from anything the ego ever proposed. Yet the ego is the only alternative to the Holy Spirit’s Voice.

The first long session lasted exactly ten minutes – I think I stopped it so I can write about it. I’ll do another session later on.

As I was thinking about the above statements I thought about the fact that life is suffering. Then I thought that even though there is impermanence and suffering in life, whether we suffer or not depends on our attitude. We have the choice of being loving and happy.

I remembered a dear friend who is one of the most miserable people I know. She has it all. A great husband, wonderful children, financial security. She is miserable because she is nothing but resentment, jealousy, and lack of unconditional love. She is very kind and loving but that kindness and love is very selective and suddenly that love is replaced by hatred and resentments. I remembered the Zen master who said, “Having resentments and expecting the other to suffer is like drinking poison and expecting the other to die.”

This friend has many physical ailments and I think her lack of forgiveness and all the resentments she feels contribute a huge amount to her problems.

I was also thinking of people like Victor Frankle, the Dalai Lama, and Nelson Mandela  who forgave and keep their loving happiness.

So you can remember the function that God gave and be free and happy or be a slave to the ego’s needs and tantrums.

Immediately after writing the above I had some extreme dark moments. I have been lost since my last software engineering job about five years ago. I really would like a job. So every now and then I remember my lack of a job and basic depression and desperation sets in.

A Course in Miracles has not got rid of my negative moods and there are days that have suicidal ideation.  Unfortunately given the current economic situation in the USA it is quite common for those of us who are over fifty and bloody well educated and thrown on the garbage heap of American ageism and short term thinking.

I don’t really want to make a political comment here but I’m sure the lack of single payer universal health care which exists in civilized industrialized countries does not help our chances for employment as the corporations are worried about the health care cost of us old farts.

Anyway, the point is that I know many well qualified excellently educated people over the age of fifty who are unemployed or are underemployed and many of us feel like killing ourselves at times. Now, don’t get me wrong, we are not crazy so we don’t act it out. But there are times like this morning that I have extreme dark moments, and this is the significant point, going through A Course in Miracles workbook makes these dark times less intense and shorter in duration.

So soon afterward I remembered that my function was given to me by God and that function is to be happy…

It is the evening and just before posting today’s article I decided to do another meditation on today’s thought. My face started to itch. I have very sensitive skin and it itches often specially when I meditate. It’s as though as I calm most of my senses the itching bursts through. So I’m thinking about my God given function and the fact that the itching reminds me that I’m alive and I can be happy.

Just then I remembered that I just transferred an article I had written many years ago from a static web site to a blog. It is called: “Don’t worry, smile, be happy,”  and is about the physiological effects of smiling which make you happy even if it is a forced smile.

So I smiled for the rest of the meditation and felt very happy and at peace with my God given function of being happy.

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