God is my strength – Vision is His gift

This post was written by DoctorJay on December 12, 2009
Posted Under: A Course In Miracles - workbook

Today there are two long exercise periods – one first thing in  the morning and the other last thing at night. According to the ACIM workbook:

Begin these practice periods by repeating the idea for today slowly, with your eyes open, looking about you. Then close your eyes and repeat the idea again, even slower than before. After this, try to think of nothing except thoughts that occur to you in relation to the idea for the day. You might think, for example:

Vision must be possible. God gives truly,

or:

God’s gifts to me must be mine, because He gave them to me.

Any thought that is clearly related to the idea for today is suitable…  If [] interferences occur, open your eyes and repeat the thought once more while looking slowly about; close your eyes, repeat the idea once more, and then continue to look for related thoughts in your mind.

I ended up doing quite a long exercise. I did not time myself. Subjectively it seemed long. I remember the following:

  • I repeated the thought for today with my eyes opened and then closed my eyes and slow said, “God is my strength. Vision is His gift.” The thought, “Therefore vision is possible” came to me.
  • I continued with thoughts like that and then I had a vivid memory of being in Paris with my wife. My parents spent the last few years of their lives living in Paris and my wife and I would visit them most years. We had a favorite walk on an island in the middle of the Seine. We have not been there for a long time since my parents passed away. The memory was quite vivid and I called it a vision. I don’t know what the ACIM means by vision but I felt safe, calm and happy in this memory and thought, “God is my strength. We will go to Paris on that walk again.”
  • A couple of times, I did open my eyes as the workbook suggested.
  • I noticed that I would use the pronoun his much more often than her or its referring to God. Normally I do not like to refer to god as only masculine. After the meditation was over (for this morning’s exercise felt like a meditation) I thought that it might be that I associate strength with masculinity and also that in Cabala God has masculine and feminine aspects and strength would be on the pillar of Gevura (strength or severity) the masculine aspect of the Deity.
  • Later in the day – it’s raining – rare for us in Southern California and I had to go shopping for my wife who has the flu. There have been little challenges with her computer and I notice that when I’m task oriented I forget to say the thought of the day. I suddenly remembered: “God is my strength – Vision is His gift.”
  • More challenges along the way. One computer (my wife’s) which whose wireless connection was not working is now working after I updated the wireless driver. However, one of my main sites is down. It has been down for quite a long while. I don’t know what is going on. I feel disappointed and don’t know what I can do about it. Reminds of the serenity prayer:
    Lord me change whatever can be changed.
    Accept what cannot be changed.
    And know the difference.
    I’m quoting the sentiment as I remember – the idea of acceptance is part of Zen Buddhism as well…
    So, I rely on God who is my strength – vision is his gift.
  • The web site is back up and just accepting what is helped a lot – that’s strength and vision.
    And a few minutes later it went down again.
    If I was not doing the ACIM workbook I would have been very,very frustrated and as it is it is not the most fun day in my life – oh well…

End of the night so the last long exercise:

  • First attempt – I went to sleep.
  • Second attempt – I remembered various events and challenges of this day and how thanks to God being my strength, things went so much easier than otherwise.
    I remembered that there are no small upsets – at the same time I thanked God that events upset me less than before…
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