In my defenselessness my safety lies

This post was written by DoctorJay on August 16, 2010
Posted Under: A Course In Miracles - workbook,Zen

Yesterday I had a thought which allows me continue A Course In Miracles workbook. Today’s thought of the day is:

In my defenselessness my safety lies

The workbook says about today’s thought (my comments in parenthesis):

You who feel threatened by this changing world, its twists of fortune and its bitter jests, its brief relationships and all the “gifts” it merely lends to take away again; attend this lesson well. The world (as you perceive it) provides no safety. It is rooted in attack, and all its “gifts” of seeming safety are illusory deceptions. It attacks, and then attacks again. No peace of mind is possible where danger threatens thus. (But once you know that all is created by God and hence good you have no need for defensiveness – you accept whatever is lovingly).

The world gives rise but to defensiveness. For threat brings anger, anger makes attack seem reasonable, honestly provoked, and righteous in the name of self-defense. Yet is defensiveness a double threat. For it attests to weakness, and sets up a system of defense that cannot work. Now are the weak still further undermined, for there is treachery without and still a greater treachery within. The mind is now confused, and knows not where to turn to find escape from its imaginings.

[] Attack, defense; defense, attack, become the circles of the hours and the days that bind the mind in heavy bands of steel with iron overlaid, returning but to start again. There seems to be no break nor ending in the ever-tightening grip of the imprisonment upon the mind.

[] Defenselessness is strength. It testifies to recognition of the Christ in you. Perhaps you will recall the text maintains that choice is always made between Christ’s strength and your own weakness, seen apart from Him. Defenselessness can never be attacked, because it recognizes strength so great attack is folly, or a silly game a tired child might play, when he becomes too sleepy to remember what he wants.

Defensiveness is weakness. It proclaims you have denied the Christ and come to fear His Father’s anger. What can save you now from your delusion of an angry god, whose fearful image you believe you see at work in all the evils of the world? What but illusions could defend you now, when it is but illusions that you fight?

[] We look past dreams today, and recognize that we need no defense because we are created unassailable, without all thought or wish or dream in which attack has any meaning. Now we cannot fear, for we have left all fearful thoughts behind. And in defenselessness we stand secure, serenely certain of our safety now, sure of salvation; sure we will fulfill our chosen purpose, as our ministry extends its holy blessing through the world.

Be still a moment, and in silence think how holy is your purpose, how secure you rest, untouchable within its light. God’s ministers have chosen that the truth be with them. Who is holier than they? Who could be surer that his happiness is fully guaranteed? And who could be more mightily protected? What defense could possibly be needed by the ones who are among the chosen ones of God, by His election and their own as well?

[] Today we practice in a form we will maintain for quite a while. We will begin each day by giving our attention to the daily thought as long as possible. Five minutes now becomes the least we give to preparation for a day in which salvation is the only goal we have. Ten would be better; fifteen better still. And as distraction ceases to arise to turn us from our purpose, we will find that half an hour is too short a time to spend with God. Nor will we willingly give less at night, in gratitude and joy.

Each hour adds to our increasing peace, as we remember to be faithful to the Will we share with God. At times, perhaps, a minute, even less, will be the most that we can offer as the hour strikes. Sometimes we will forget. At other times the business of the world will close on us, and we will be unable to withdraw a little while, and turn our thoughts to God.

Yet when we can, we will observe our trust as ministers of God, in hourly remembrance of our mission and His Love. And we will quietly sit by and wait on Him and listen to His Voice, and learn what He would have us do the hour that is yet to come; while thanking Him for all the gifts He gave us in the one gone by.

In time, with practice, you will never cease to think of Him, and hear His loving Voice guiding your footsteps into quiet ways, where you will walk in true defenselessness. For you will know that Heaven goes with you. Nor would you keep your mind away from Him a moment, even though your time is spent in offering salvation to the world. Think you He will not make this possible, for you who chose to carry out His plan for the salvation of the world and yours?

Today our theme is our defenselessness. We clothe ourselves in it, as we prepare to meet the day. We rise up strong in Christ, and let our weakness disappear, as we remember that His strength abides in us. We will remind ourselves that He remains beside us through the day, and never leaves our weakness unsupported by His strength. We call upon His strength each time we feel the threat of our defenses undermine our certainty of purpose. We will pause a moment, as He tells us, “I am here.”

Your practicing will now begin to take the earnestness of love, to help you keep your mind from wandering from its intent. Be not afraid nor timid. There can be no doubt that you will reach your final goal. The ministers of God can never fail, because the love and strength and peace that shine from them to all their brothers come from Him. These are His gifts to you. Defenselessness is all you need to give Him in return. You lay aside but what was never real, to look on Christ and see His sinlessness.

My reaction and meditations:

  • Before I even start the first meditation the thought comes to me: “Be still and know that I’m God.”
    As I enter the stillness state of deep meditation I realize that a Zen attitude of acceptance is the same as defenselessness and of course it is not the same as passivity as once you accept whatever is you have more power to act correctly out of loving compassion.
  • I immediately did a much longer meditation. As I entered the stillness state my nose itched a huge amount I became defenseless to it and thanked God and it disappeared. Knowing  that all is created by God (by you as a co-creator) allows you to accept easily ans lovingly and all danger disappears.
  • I had to go to my dentist for my quarterly deep cleaning which used to hurt a huge amount (until I started to use hypnosis for anesthesia)  – this time in fact I could not quite get into a deep hypnosis at first. I had a little pain. So I just thought that this was a gift from God so it was good. The next instant half an hour had past and the hygienist had finished with the deep cleansing and was polishing my teeth.
  • They say when the student is ready the teacher appears. In this case I needed opportunities to be defenseless, and I had a lot of such opportunities. On the freeway drivers pulled out in front of me. I smiled and remained calm. In the dentists office we discovered that I needed a couple of fillings. Again I accepted it peacefully. Later at the gym in the sauna I met someone who bothers me as he always aggressively shoves my towel aside and places his towel to dry. OK I used to be so petty. The point is that today, I smiled at him and offered the spot to him. He thanked me and I felt good. So by accepting anything that happened to me as gifts from God all was wonderful.

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